I am not me

I know i had been lost and away for so long.

Since i joined my new company, i had been busy from morning till night almost everydays including weekends and holidays.
It had been very unusual for me as i really felt that i lost my life which i used to have. It is suffering. I keep on telling myself that this is the time i can prove myself and push myself to the limit. But after all, sometimes i still think...does all this worth? Will the company appreciate?I know work is important but human still need a balanced life. Maybe i am weak and not strong enough for all this, i started to have bad sleep which my mind kept running and sometimes i woke up in the middle sleep thinking about work that had not been completed. Damn...
But luckily i had some colleagues which had been very helpful along the way, without them, it will be worst.

Every morning i left for work and come back late. I don't have much personal time with my wife either. We both eat seperately most of the time. I know she trying her best to cope with my new work situation but for sure i know she isn't happy sometimes.

I hope things will get better as time goes.