I am tired of all this shit

TOday was a hectic day...a tiring day too..
One of my client fired up a call to me and requires me to go support them on the spot. Fuck them all, especially the bloody HOD. I know some bugs occurs but can you just give me some time as i already make appointment with other clients.!! I hate them very much and you just wait. I will give you a BOM.
After working on saturday and sunday..makes me feel tired on monday. Really don't have the mood to work. I think i have to stop working as part time. Need to find other source of income. what is happening to me..why everything seems to be so messed up...Cold war has initiated and estimated ends july...

alone in tears..
alone in pains...

Final Decision

After a fierce conversation, i decided to put a stop in the relation and start a new own life. I can't take it any more. I understand that you care about me so much and you really did a lot of things that proven your love. But i am really sorry that i am too selfish, arrogant and cruel. I couldn't fulfill your needs. I need freedom. I am truely sorry. As discussed, we only have 1 month left before we starts our own life... I know you will hate me so much but i have no choice, both of us are suffering for more than 2 year already. We just keep maintaining the relations and pretend nothing happened. But how far can we go? I really cannot accept it when you uses violence whenever there is an arguement. I hated that so much. I hope you can be strong to accept it.
I am sorry...

Tired

I wanted to write a lot of things but i dunno how to write now....maybe i write in short words. Hope u guys understand

Worked 12 hrs
Tired
Boring
Cannot sleep
stress
sad
moody
tomolo have to work again


-N-

My very own story

Today is just not a smooth day. Everything seems to be upside down. Too much stress in job I feel, clients seems to be very strict to project’s deadline. After giving them an “estimated” deadline, then only can relax a bit. (Although I know that the deadline won’t be fulfilled coz the only programmer won’t be able to deliver those solutions in such a tight deadline, therefore I will have to prepare more solid bulletproof armor for the next battle). Company seems to be a bit shaky lately; shares drops like hell and salary is keep on delayed. Don’t know what is going to happen next. Well after working, I still have to deal with some relation problems. Sometimes I feel very silly on how could it happened? Maybe me and her just have different perception and point of view, Sometimes we cannot agree on something and with just a little issue will end up with anger and tears. I feel that is it not worth it to bring up such a little issue to such situation. But she thinks that it is a major issue. Sometimes I just wonder if our relation could last until when. Should there be a stop or just have to bare with it? To be worse, just now my monitor’s power cable just burned. Fire sparks was fired out from the middle of the power cord. The smells of the rubber is terrible. Luckily my monitor doesn’t burn along. Now is late but I still no mood to sleep, damaging my mind with some Bacardi hopefully I can have a good sleep later. Well, that’s all. Till next time.